Rants & Mental Health Blog

​since olazanpine made me hungry, I got switched to haldol which made me stiff.  I felt like I was frozen in place and slurred my speech so I went to Wake Med ER and been admitted.  Doctor was worried I had mini stroke 

I been on olazapine for a month. My voices have been muddled in my head which I guess is good news. The downside is I’m hungry which is caused by my olazanpine

Sorry.  I hadn't written in a while.  After I got discharged from Raleigh Oaks Behavior Health, my dad came to pick me up, and I stayed with him for 2 months in Virginia.  I came back to North Carolina few times for medical appointments but I had a couple additional video visits where my providers didn't bill my insurance.  Medicaid didn't allow me to have out-of-state medical appointments.  I decided to come back to North Carolina and stay in a hotel because I was homeless and wanted to continue my medical care in North Carolina.  My hotel was - I guess - a good location because it was on a bus route that had frequent weekday service downtown (15 minutes).  The weekend service was 30 minutes which was decent I guess. Main two things that been bugging me are my side effects of Olazapine and my annoyance of noises.  I'm taking 10 mg of Olazapine, and it's making me tired and hungry.   I found the vaccum and sirens - Wakemed ER is nearby -...

I was the unfortunate victim of a sexual assault and larceny of my switch and accessories.  I was afraid my assailant was coming after me and was essentially paranoid.  I spent nine days - July 16, 2025 to July 25, 2025 - at Raleigh Oaks.  I was involuntarily held and had to wear ankle monitor so staff can locate me.   It was hard to sleep because I can't close the door to sleep, and staff would check on me every 15 minutes even when I'm asleep.  I was a light sleeper so could hear their footsteps coming and leaving the room. Two of the most annoying patients include one who was one nicknamed the Screaming Banshee because she would scream at voices she hears in her head.  She followed me around which got creepy.  Second patient was nosey wandering why I thrown up and status of my housing once I'm discharged.   In the courtyard, there was a garden where tomatos and cucumbers grew.    My interactions were mostly nurses, behavior ...

i can’t figure out if my therapist is just oblivious or what because he seemed surprised Pokemon was franchise.  he had seen my merchandise - plush, trading cards, etc - that i paid for.  screenshots from anime / cartoons are free but i paid for other merchandise now including video game and key chain.  what exactly would he call it?  I thought i was using typical definition of franchise that popular media acknowledged. His knowledge of Pokemon is … no idea. I did show him photo of Totodile’s evolution and called evolution flinstones (have you seen chest markings of the evolution?) .  someone on instagram (a meme i guess) was referring to flinstones and i’m just echoing it.  He mistook my plushie and key chain of totodile (different size but same character) for evolution (flinstones guy).  At least my family doctor acknowledged my plushie and his screenshot online were same character.  what world was he living in?  i’m switching therapists

I'm more interested in action/ adventure / heists and physical comedy because I grew up with Pokémon and Smallville .  Probably why I liked Ash's Totodile and Roy's Fuecoco in Pokémon   animation / amine.  Live action movie for Tom and Jerry that came out few years ago with Colin Jost from SNL was entertaining / funny (loved physical comedy).  I was never interested in Cougar Town despite it have good looking Josh Hopkins and Courtney Cox.  I could never watch more than couple minutes of that comedy. I mostly cared about Josh 's character