Rants & Mental Health Blog

 I had a disability lawyer going over my case prior to the judge next Tuesday.  I explained Millenium (MVP) wasn't a good fit because it was an overnight job (12 hours), and I didn't feel like eating when getting home.  I just wanted to go to sleep.  Because I wasn't eating while I take my schizophrenia drug, I was hallucinating at work.  Job was easy. Amazon wasn't a good fit because Amazon kept writing me up for not meeting rate. I get overwhelmed at work including concessions (Eats2Seats) and recycling (Sonoco?) jobs by the onslaught of information.  Too much information. I had back pain sometimes made worse by moving or walking. New spine fracture found. He offered me job sealing envelopes and not meeting quotas.  Where can I get that kind of job?  I wasn't sure.

I had a video visit with my therapist / social worker in the afternoon.  I told him that I had similar conversations with my dad and Mark (my friend).  I told both of them to stop questioning whether doctor visits were necessary.  I don't need to be justifying my actions to people.  I'm a fully grown adult so let me deal with the consequences of my actions.  I told my therapist that I want to do adult things but I also watch kids shows.

  I had endocrinology visit yesterday and hallucinated cars (black Tesla included) following me to visit.  I had them fix an elevator that was out of service in the office building; it had 6 floors. Today, I went to pick up 24 hour pee exam jug from hospital and hallucinated cars following me to hospital.  I asked them to look at elevator at hospital while I picked up jug. In the afternoon, I had therapist video visit.  I mentioned that I hung up on my dad because he was insinuating my hair was stuck together.  My hair was no longer stuck together.  I also mentioned a possum outside back door; my therapist didn't find my friend Tim smart when he mentioned he had a crocodile shoes.  I told my therapist that Mark thought Tim was my favorite man.  I tended to use positive words for things that are my favorite.

I been doing tea leave readings because I seen it in Harry Potter and Prisoner of Azkaban .  I'm optimistic  because my shapes I been getting were mountains and crescent moon shapes.  According to Bing AI's interpretation, I will be overcoming challenges and prosperity, so I will either get disability payments or unemployment benefits or a job in the future.  I wasn't fan of asking my dad for money because he's been tracking every single penny that he gave me.