My mental health

 Why do I feel like I have schizoaffective disorder and a personality disorder - either narcissistic or borderline personality disorder?  I been trying to tell psychiatrist of my depression but I don't know if she's not listening or what.  I slept days in bed in September 2024; I was exhausted 2009 school year and 2013 school year.  I couldn't get up for classes at 8:45 in high school or 8 am in college.  I'm not cold hearted like your narcissistic people. I refused to spray Zelda (a cat) with spray bottle; I had to pee but wanted her to cuddle.  I may have insulted her (called her defective) but she liked chewing plastic.



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